Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Reflections

First day of Kindergarten 2009 Last day of Kindergarten 2010
This makes me sad. It makes me sad because I feel like I missed all these changes that are so visible when put side by side. When did the same size shirt fit him above the elbow instead of below? When did the baby face, little bit of chubby cheeks leave? When did he get big enough to not want a little kid Lightning McQueen backpack, but a cool skater backpack. When did he get comfortable and confident enough to be on his, without me, all day? I'm not looking forward to first grade.
This makes me happy. It makes me happy because he is healthy and smart and growing well. I love knowing that he is confident and comfortable enough in his own skin to be on his own for the day and do pretty well. It makes me happy because he is excited about learning and happy to attend school.
But mostly it still makes me sad. I wish I could freeze time, or maybe just make a conscience effort to breath and enjoy it more often.
I had a new baby nephew born today and it made me think of each of my son's 'birth' days. There is nothing like it. The noises, the smells, the sounds of that first few hours right from heaven is so very special and I miss it. I am so very grateful my boys are happy and healthy and growing, but I wish it would slow down a little.

3 comments:

Jennifer Pelo Rawlings said...

Those pictures are so cute. He looks so new and shiny in the first and all grown up and experienced in the second. It goes way to fast. I don't know how to stop it.

~alicia said...

What a sweet blog! I remember when I dropped Travis off for first day of high school...I had that image of him first day of Kindergarten with the backpact almost as big as him...it is these tender moments and memories that will pull on your heart strings when these boys get older. Savor, savor, savor!

The Snow Family said...

I hear you loud and clear and feel your pain. Wait until his little cheeks start showing the 5 O'clock shadow...